Sunday, January 6, 2013

reality TV

i've used this before, but seemed appropriate

i cup water to my face. warm & wet, it collects in my beard, works at the bits of breakfast, last night's dinner-everything that just vacated my stomach, which still clings to me. having a beard and vomiting don't mix & always at these moments, i think of shaving it. then decide just not to vomit again. as if.

more water, i catch some in my mouth, swish, spit. run my tongue around my mouth. more water, swish, spit. wet my hair back. look in the mirror, decide that is not a good idea. inhale. exhale. reteaching the rhythm of breathing to my roiling stomach. small glittering jewels of wet reflective worlds fly from my beard with each exhalation.

i don't get sick often, but when i do, i do it with style. the last night of our honeymoon, we spent in the hospital. then once on the trip home. every couple years. clockwork.

the water from the faucet curls round my finger to continuing heading gravity's call to the teeth of the drain. i don't know how long i have been watching it. reach up and turn the knob. pop the top on the plastic case and slide the thermometer in mouth. it's cold under my tongue.

on the other side of the door, i hear my boys playing, the television on, their friends. they have been playing football outside. i watched them out the window until i could take it no longer and sought relief.

beep

101.6, not bad, could be worse.

'hey honey, science confirms it, i am hot'

toweling my face, i open the door, ready to brave the fifteen steps to the couch.

'why don't you go downstairs and take a nap.'

so i do, secure in the knowledge, or delirious enough to believe.

a field of flowers becomes butterflies circling the sun, all the colors an artists brush can render to the tune of Mozart turned Godsmack...Godsmack? Godsmack?

'hello,' awake again, i mumble, phone to my temple.

'hi Sonbuck, saw on Facebook where you were not feeling well. how are you?'

'my will is in the top drawer of my bedside table.'

she laughs, 'well make sure you drink plenty of fluids and get rest.'

'i am. i will.'

silence, sigh.

i take a pen from among my books and pen this on a blank page in the back of one of them, because it's the intimate details that intrigue us, and knowing them, make us feel better about our own lives. i'll even put it in on of those pseudo haiku for you.

stringy meat flecks,
indistinguishable multi-color vegetable matter
clog the drain.

ah, don't you feel better already?

i do.

Actually, I feel much better today after nearly 48 hours of the stomach flu...nasty stuff...thanks to all who gave condolences yesterday. smiles. And today, I actually celebrate ~ get my 24 month chip ~ for being Facebook free. This is for the 1653 friends that I am sure have been wondering about me these last 2 years. Smiles. I am alive and well.

67 comments:

Heaven said...

Glad to know you are feeling better Brian ~ Your pseudo haiku made me smile ~

I am hardly on FB myself but cheers to you for being free of that social network that sucks the intimate details of our lives into meaningless blurbs ~ I would rather keep it among my family and friends ~

Happy Sunday ~

Mary said...

Ha, you are right....it is the intimate details that intrigue us, the details that connect us all with one another.

Really hope you are feeling a lot better today, Brian. The stomach flu can take a lot out of a person. (LOL)

DJan said...

Other than your ability to draw images in my mind, and today it's of your vomit, I enjoyed reading this. Glad to hear you are better today. Congratulations on earning that chip! :-)

JANU said...

Science confirms that you are hot! That's cool ;-) Glad you are feeling better and stay that way.

Optimistic Existentialist said...

Glad you're feeling better Brian. I hope you continue to do so.

Gloria said...

omy Brian you really were so sick I hate VOMITING really I hate.
But sometimes....is impossible stop hope you felling really better today:)

Susan said...

"small glittering jewels of wet reflective worlds fly from my beard with each exhalation."

Really hallucinating with the extra gravity, I think . . . I hope you can take tomorrow off to rebuild your energy. I'd love to hear you were on your 2nd anniversary free of the flu!

dsnake1 said...

glad to know you're feeling better.

your sense of humour is still intact. :)

farawayinthesunshine said...

Must have been a nasty bug...I am glad you are feeling better... fascinating to see that being so sick the writer in you still to the time to pen his thoughts on paper...enjoy Sunday Brian...

Back to school tomorrow?

Myrna R. said...

So glad you're feeling better Brian. I know how horrible the stomach flu is. Yuck. I guess illness has a way of awakening us to all the details. We really feel and see when our bodies malfunction.

I think it's great that you still find joy in writing when you don't feel well.

Leovi said...

Surprising. Yes, I would like to leave at night my will on the table, connected to the battery charger. And in the morning to have it fully charged.

manicddaily said...

Wish I could send you a get well elephant! Mine's getting better. k .

kaykuala said...

Glad you're getting better Brian! It'll take a lot more to bring down a heck of a guy! Cheers to you!

Hank

Bonnie said...

Poor you - that's really not fun. Glad you are feeling better today.

Vicki Lane said...

Glad you're better now -- that sort of purging, unpleasant as it is, is kind of appropriate for beginning the new year. Out with the bad!

Claudia said...

smiles..glad you're feeling better..brought back memories of my last stomach flu..fam was still in france on holiday and i took the train back on sunday because i had to go back to work on monday...sunday night it started and i had to call my boss and call in sick...goodness..i thought i'm going to die and no one will notice...smiles

hedgewitch said...

Ugh. Glad you're feeling better, because you really brought the nasty here--haven't had the wonders of stomach flu in many years(one of the few advantages of aging is the bugs lose interest in your anti-bodied body) but you made me recall vividly(minus the beard complications) the whole ugly sequence. Vivid prose/poetry, bri. Keep sucking up the liquids, and shaking off the tiny shiny worlds.

Gail said...

I believe I said one time you could write about vomit and make it wonderful...well, you did.

Laurie Kolp said...

a field of flowers becomes butterflies circling the sun, all the colors an artists brush can render to the tune of Mozart turned Godsmack...Godsmack? Godsmack?

... so fitting for a feverish dream... I'm so glad you're feeling better, and congrats on the chip! = )

Eva Gallant said...

Yikes! I never thought about the mechanics of vomiting with a beard. Glad you don't do it often!

Betsy Brock said...

thanks so much for sharing all the intimate details of your virus. lol....I think I've thrown up 3 times in my whole life. Three times too many. lol....

can't stand facebook myself...I signed up as a favor to Taylor last year. He got a new job as a social media manager for a business and needed me to 'like' the business. ha. It pales in comparison to a blog in every way.

glad you're better...and I guess number one son survived the sleepover? :)

Tara Miller said...

So glad you're not dying anymore, my love. hee hee ;) Yes, you can write about anything and everything and do it oh so well. Except the very last part of this one was ewwwww!!

Victoria said...

Brian, this is so real. We've all been there (perhaps, without the beard) and experienced your misery once again in your descriptive power. Congrats on the chip. 24 months, eh? I know Fb can be an addiction for many...I just haven't gotten that one yet! No time. Glad you're starting to feel better again.

uneven steven said...

oooh glad i don't have a beard. very graphic - could feel it

happygirl said...

The haiku and beard description left quite a pic in my minds eye. Thanks for making it easier to stay on my diet. :)

Anne said...

I have never heard anyone speak so eloquently about vomit. Jaysus Brian you raised puking to an art form :)

She Writes said...

So many intimate relationships to be had through Facebook :). Writers like details, not sure everyone else does? Unless we are famous, Facebook fame :)?!

Ugh on stomach flue. Glad you are on the upswing and that I never worry about shaving my beard!

Karen said...

Glad you're feeling better today. Nasty thing going round out there. Will we (who write because...well, just because) be writing on our deathbeds? Turn decay into "food for thought?" I fear so. At least you keep your sense of humor!

Paul said...

Being sick is not nice. I seem to run to the same clock as you. Pleased you're feeling better.

Goofball said...

glad you are better! a stomac flu is so horrible. Flu epidemic is surrounding Belgium at the moment with big outbreaks in netherlands, germany , france & UK. Yeay, I need to go work in Amsterdam again next week.

haha on the "Science confirmed, I am hot" statement. Humor combined with flu, you rock.

Tabor said...

You actually Haikued vomit??!! Seems that there is not one single thing that can stop an artist.

Pat Hatt said...

blah to that
Ruffles to ocd of the cat
As the vomit shows
Or should that be flows? haha
Glad all is getting better though
And yeah screw facebook as it does blow

The Retired One said...

Gotta love your graphic descriptions of vomit...lol. But I am reading this late so am relieved that you are over this now. Hope the boys and your wife don't get the bug!,

RMP said...

not so sure I feel better after reading this piece, but I'm glad to hear that you are. you really let it all out there and right from the get go—you think I would have known better than to read the haiku.... though, I do appreciate the slight reprieve with the butterflies.

Who Is Afraid Of Miss Lovett? No, Mrs.Lovett... said...

"a field of flowers becomes butterflies circling the sun, all the colors an artists brush can render to the tune of Mozart turned Godsmack...Godsmack? Godsmack?"

Hi! Brian...Thanks, for sharing the image and your very poetic words as you recover from...
By the way, I like your transition from looking out Of the window to your temperature being read...

[Here wishing you a full recovery too!]
deedee :)

Janice said...

Very amusing! We've all been there! And even a haiku... :-)

Geraldine said...

Ohhh...poor you. Nasty stuff but I'm so glad you're feeling better Brian. You can make anything entertaining, even feeling like crap!

Take care, G

Wander said...

I remember the first time I really got sick, the flu, I thought I was dying "I'm dying mama" " no son you just have the flu" "I'm dying of the flu mama" lol scared the crap out of me:-)
I'm in bed myself after barfing about an hr ago...wishing you a good night, with much rest, feel better man

Stephanie said...

Oh how truly awful. I hope you really do fel better soon!

^.^ said...

... what are the unidentifiable meat flecks doing in your vomit ... Brian!!! I said grated and very oydized apples ... grrhh, what ever, you are on your own from now on ... what ever ... love, cat.

Cloudia said...

get well dear poet beard-y

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adeeyoyo said...

The details are what makes your writing so great. Most of us don't notice them or take them for granted. Sorry you have been ill and hope the rest of your family don't also get it... Loved the haiku :D

Audrey Howitt aka Divalounger said...

So sorry Brian! But I am glad you are better. The stomach flu is a nasty creature--

Daniel said...

I love your spirit, even in the sucky times.

Alexandra said...

Hope you're feeling better by now. And well, at least one this one, I'll leave the "details" to you!! ;)

Alexandra said...

P.S. These really are my feet! LOVE my stripey socks. Just saying...

The Empress said...

The flu is terrible, and that 101 feels so much hotter than 101. I remember taking my temp once and "What? 101? Feels more like 212!!!"

Glad you're better.

And facebook, I use it very rarely. Only when social media demands a presence, here and there.

xo

missing moments said...

Rarely rarely rarely every get sick and hate vomiting! And you are a wise man with no FB. Find it hard to give up for myself though .. love sharing with my family.

flaubert said...

Wow, that was graphic, Brian. I am glad you are feeling better. I am not sure how you can write, while feeling so bad.

Pamela

Tammy Theriault said...

i think you just made me vomit with your vomit description story of being sick...ok, not really...but thanks for making such a,um, different post??? :D

my heart's love songs said...

oh! this one needed a warning for those with weak stomach's, Bri! i would've skipped your "lovely" haiku! {smile}

so happy you are feeling better!

{don't tell anyone but i don't do/never have done facebook.}

take care of yourself! {and think about shaving....}

Madeleine Begun Kane said...

Wonderfully done. The only good part about being sick is the verse it inspires. Hope you're continuing to feel better!

Dave King said...

You have my undying sympathy - and my un-stinted admiration for the authenticity with which you have captured the event, and the detail and the blackness of it. Been there, had that, still got the stains on the t-shirt, though I must admit I cannot challenge your clockwork regularity -- and I've never managed to make art out of the experience! Fabulously well done! Six team points, I think.
hope by now you are fully back in the land of the living.

Lorraine said...

Well I'm very happy that I were able to transmit from you to me, I mean kids or cats, cats are so much easier to ignore ;)

Elsie The Writer said...

Congrats on your FB chip. For me, I can only get them on a weekly basis, I'm just not that strong!

I'm glad you're on the mend, the stomach flu is by far much worse than any other, as you proved with your very descriptive haiku! ha ha ha

Keep taking care.

irene said...

Yea, Brian I like how you write exactly how it is. Just my style. Beard & vomit doesn't blend too well, that's true.

Neva Flores said...

I am so glad you are feeling better. There are many of us out here waiting to read your words.

Maria Perry Mohan said...

That's good to know....

Valerie said...

Sorry to hear you've been unwell, Brian. Hope today you have new vigour and a settled stomach. Loved Heaven's comment about Facebook... my sentiments entirely.

the walking man said...

Shave at your own peril.

SueAnn Lommler said...

I could have made it all day without knowing this!! Ha
Glad you are feeling better!
Hugs
SueAnn

JStar said...

The worst feeling ever!!!

Syd said...

Ugh--hate that bug. Glad that you are feeling better. Your vomit description was perfect. LOL

FrankandMary said...

And maybe a little bit of your Cro-Magnon roots, since they vomited all the time. I think it was the pork tartare. ~Mary

Okie said...

ugh...the joys of being sick. Great imagery and humor. Nice piece. Glad you're feeling better.

Sheila said...

the grossest haiku ever!!!! glad you are feeling better. congrats on the 2 years...I'm sure one day at a time...smiles

Alice Audrey said...

You had a rough one. The image of vomit in a beard is going to stick with me for entirely too long.