Thursday, November 18, 2010

55 - charitable misgivings

today i found
a shiny back
black beetle
crawling
tile to tile
along the baseboard
by the sink
in the bathroom

what is it he seeks?

& when he turned
round, back
the other way
i took him
on my finger
releasing
him outdoors

but wonder if
that is what
he really wanted

or needed...

Tell a story in 55 words. Give it a try or just read more, go see g-man.

91 comments:

Matty said...

You were very kind. Most people wouldn't have been so generous. I'm sure he had another agenda.

Nessa said...

I bet he thought you were the hand of God.

Monkey Man said...

I prefer to release to the wild as well. Squashed bugs are a mess to clean up. Besides....much more fun decomposing material to munch on this time of year.

Just Be Real said...

I do that with geko's that get inside my apt. Then I too wonder if I shorten his life by releasing him back into the wild.

Caty said...

I prefer to let them go too...As long as it's not a breeding cockroach. If it's a spider, sometimes I just let him hang out in the bathroom with me (that's where they usually visit). Nice writing on the bug, by the way :)

Hilary said...

Catch and release. It may not have been what he wanted or needed but it's better than what he would have got from most people.

Brian Miller said...

nessa...that was pretty close to my point...sometimes when we help others out we play God...giving them what we think they need or want, but in the end did we really...kinda like the quote from the move 'the big kahuna'..."any time you lay your hands on a conversation, it becomes a sales pitch"

Cinner said...

you are caring and kind. me thinks your a good fellow. smiles.

Mama Zen said...

Maybe he just wanted to brush his teeth? Do beetles have teeth?

Eva Gallant said...

yuk! to any kind of insect!

moondustwriter said...

seek and ye shall find...

did you ask him???

Happy weekend (almost) Bri

Moonie smiles

California Girl said...

That's adorable and, I'm with Matty, most people wouldn't have been kind.

G-Man said...

You Deported the little Bugger!
Great Job!! hahahahaha
Loved your entymological 55 Son!
Clever and fun...Just Like You!
Thanks for playing, and have a Kick Ass Week-End...G

sheila said...

Very kind of you. He was probably going to feed hi thousand and one children. :o)

Mine's up HERE

5thsister said...

I'm sorry but I consider bugs to be unwelcome intruders. I show no mercy. I leave alone, however, the salamanders and the spiders in my garage. They know to keep in their place.

Bev said...

very interesting perspective brian...i read oswald chambers "my utmost for his highest" just about every day, and this is the text from 11/15:
"WHAT IS THAT TO THEE?"
"Lord, what shall this man do? . . What is that to thee? Follow thou Me." John 21:21-22
One of our severest lessons comes from the stubborn refusal to see that we must not interfere in other people's lives. It takes a long time to realize the danger of being an amateur providence, that is, interfering with God's order for others. You see a certain person suffering, and you say - He shall not suffer, and I will see that he does not. You put your hand straight in front of God's permissive will to prevent it, and God says - "What is that to thee?"

being an amateur providence...isn't that what one does when "trying to help"..???

The Retired One said...

Just like fate..does it really carry us where we should go??? And, do we even know enough to protest?

Me said...

An interesting perspective. I would put a bug outside before squishing it, too. But never thought to wonder how the little creature felt about it...

Cindybrown said...

Such a kind hearted man you are :)

Teresa said...

I love this! I tend to put those insects outside too. I'm guessing when it's a day away from cold and snowy that really isn't what they want.

David Waters said...

I had a bee the other day visit me in my office, I wondered the same of him....nicely done friend

cheers

Bonnie said...

He probably wanted to move in with you for the winter. :-)

Vicki Lane said...

Good for you -- he probably was happier outside.

Fireblossom said...

Laffin @ Mama Zen. Did you leave him some floss, Brian?

secret agent woman said...

I never know where they are going or why, but I feel sure that liberating them is far more to their liking than killing them.

Heather said...

my kids laugh at me because i always put spiders back outside...hmmm? i never thought the spider might actually like staying in my house! ha. ha. this was great to read! xo

Alice Audrey said...

I'm sorry, but I don't care what a black beetle needs. If it's in my home, tossing it out is being nice.

drybottomgirl said...

I always try to release bugs too but its getting so cold that I think they want to stay....good 55 and I hope you and yours have a super weekend...

Daniel said...

Wait, I bet this really isn't about the beetle. (Loved the second skin of this one my friend.)

lifeisaroadtrip said...

Kind of makes you wonder whose hand we're riding on...

Brian Miller said...

see that is why you are a ricket scientist daniel...smiles.

KB said...

I release bugs too but I often wonder if I am doing the right thing. What if I put them back too far from their homes and they get lost?

magiceye said...

aah... will never know! :)

Mighty M said...

I would have done the same thing - only with a cup or a piece of paper..no direct bug to hand contact please. :)

Lori said...

Many people would have squashed him with their foot or grabbed him and flushed him down the toilet so right away I thought that's kinda cool that you set him free. Then, like always I went back and read this again...and then the title caught my eye..this time I thought about this from view point of those we give our chariy to...are the things we give away what they really want or need?

This made me think of this homeless shelter that I bring mens clothing and such to...I was going to make a drop off recently and called ahead...the person on the phone explained they were no longer taking donations because people were giving them things infected with bed bugs. I was almost speechless as he told me this. Then he went on to say that if the person in charge knew me personally to be a person to be trusted to not give them bed bugs then maybe they would take it.

All of that to say this...did they need or want these things that were given to them? Most likey but in the end it really was charitable misgiving.

adeeyoyo said...

Interesting, what drives them - food and sex? I would think he had a better chance outside...

R. Burnett Baker said...

Nice! I, too, have often wondered if I've sent a poor bug to it's demise by putting it back in the elements. Well, at least we try to help...

Rick

TALON said...

I think he was a spy beetle on a secret mission...he's gone back to headquarters now and is getting debriefed. :)

Mona said...

whatever he was seeking, he surely must have been lost in a foreign territory, and you put him in a familiar one. So he must be thankful!

ds said...

Lucky beetle. In my house he would have been cat fodder!

A Daft Scots Lass said...

Your left-over crumbs?

Nice 55!

Zuzana said...

Oh, I loved this one, so much philosophy in the seemingly mundane, so perfectly delicious to ponder.;)
Have a lovely Friday dear Brian,
xoxo

ladyfi said...

I wonder if the bug even knew what it was seeking...

anthonynorth said...

Too many are unkind nowadays - or at least, indifferent.

izzy said...

I often wonder if they (and spiders_
are thirsty...Just did a meditation
on " Goodness" , as it came up in a prayer I was studying. Very interesting!
Enjoy your day.

Birdie said...

that made me smile ... I always pick up all the bucks that move and release them outside ... I don't know whether they will be happier there then in our house but somehow I do believe they will :-) ... those that 'sleep' and don't move I leave them just be ... :-) happy w-e Brian!

Jerry said...

The bug's mind is a mysterious thing.

Lorraine said...

whatever it wants we can't imagine, but it's always necessary to put them back in their own world...gosh I love your writing

ladynimue said...

unwanted help ;) rings true for humans too !

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

I wonder what the world looks like from that perspective... tiny beetle on the fingertip of a giant

natalee said...

Oh your just like my hubby.. I on the otherhand scream and then step on themm... Ps.. everyone and their mother commented on your comment on my bog..(HO HO HO).. I laughed so hard when I read it...... I'll definitely add it to the shirt and throw out props to you!!!

slommler said...

I capture and release too! Ha! I figure they got stuck inside and really are looking for a way out!!
My hubby just laughs!! But he helps!
Hugs
SueAnn

Shell said...

We assume many things, often unfounded, about others...our actions are often a result of what it is we likely want or need....not the other way around, I have noticed. Thoughtful post...as always.
~Shell

Gaston Studio said...

Lovely Bhuddist thing to do Brian!

Kathy's Klothesline said...

A lot to think about .......

Kathy's Klothesline said...

A lot to think about .......

Valerie said...

but wonder if
that is what
he really wanted
or needed...

Yes, we take a lot on ourselves, sometimes thinking we know best ... when we don't. Loved this, Brian.

ModernMom said...

You were more charitable then me! I would have flushed him:)

Anonymous said...

beautiful poem brian, just loved it. may be he grumbled a lot when you made him lose his track.

poor thing or lucky thing, who knows what he was. :)

trisha
mydomainpvt.wordpress.com

Alan Burnett said...

The beetle probably said to itself "Oh not again, just as I get near the food this big chap always throws me out into the cold again"

RNSANE said...

You are so kind, Brian. I doubt I would have been that generous, fearing he would just get back inside. Since I've twice developed serious cellulitis ( one requiring a five day hospitalization ) from insect bites, I don't want them in my home around me. I seem to be yummy food for them.

Anonymous said...

Hmm thats what I do too. :) Nicely written Brian - Budhaaah

Enchanted Oak said...

Your title for this one is brilliant.

Here's my 55:
The Straight Poop

gayle said...

Sweet to release him or her!

MorningAJ said...

I really like this. I often rescue bugs that I find in the house (my cats will eat anything!)and put them outside. But I wonder if they'd be happier left to fate.
Nice 55.

Tabor said...

How are you able to open the mundane to a thousand new questions?

Jannie Funster said...

Poor little beetle. I hope he is happy. He probably is back boogieing with his girlfriend now!

xo

hedgewitch said...

I'm an inveterate capture-and-releaser, but not with my fingers ugh--I use a glass and a piece of cardboard. tricky with wasps, but rewarding, like this delightful poem.

Brian Miller said...

hey thanks everyone i have been offline for about 14 hours....playing catch up with you....hope you all are having a great day!

Eric Alder said...

He was probably looking for your CD collection... that's where I keep my Beatles.

Claudia said...

your beetle took me to third world countries...wondering if what we do to help people is always what they want...and need.. and we're always so sure we know what's good for them..

Jill said...

Yes...a kind gesture on your part...I imagine he won't last long with the chills coming!

only a movie said...

Love the perspective on this... so simple and so smart.

Baino said...

Ah Im sure that's what he wanted. I have the early signs of Christmas beetles, releasing them all the time the little brown bombers.

Susan at Stony River said...

I think he was looking for your M&M stash.

Well, that's what I would have been doing LOL

(loved this by the way -- lots of food for thought too!)

Sophia said...

Dude, talk about leaving this one wide open!!! ;) I know where I want to go..just need a little help getting there....sometimes we all need just a little nudge. :)

(curtsy)

hope said...

I wonder that every time I get the annual influx of lady bugs over my computer...I help them outside, then wonder if maybe they needed to e-mail someone. ;)

Nice one!

otin said...

Squash that little buggar! LOL!

annell said...

I would trust your sense of what he needed. You are generous and kind, right jolly fellow. And the perfect season to be jolly, and toss little black bugs away.

OJ Gonzalez-Cazares said...

aw how cute... tender little bug...
I guess you'll never know!

ps - thanks for your nice words and get well wishes for my husband. I'm still behind with my reading but wanted to stop by your blog first ;)

blueviolet said...

I wouldn't have stopped to even think about what it wanted, because what I would have wanted is its immediate death.

kavisionz said...

I wonder if even HE knew of his next task! :) But you were so kind to him.. I am sure he will appreciate that...

Now I am thinking, we are all, in some ways, just like him.. doing things, going here and there, trying to complete something... and yet, never really aware of the whys and whats of it! :) It's a good thing someone's sitting up there to give us a "flick" once in a while :)
Don't you think?

Poignant read, B... thanks..

BLOGitse said...

like me this week here in Helsinki - going here and there trying to organize things... :)
and it's cold 28.4 F brrrrr....Have a nice and warm weekend! :)

Goofball said...

would the beetle know what he seeks or just crawl until he finds what he seeks unexpectedly?

Akelamalu said...

You were being kind but you're right, how do we know what creatures really want or need?

Nice 55 Brian.

Strummed Words said...

Nice to take the critter out. Hope it's not too cold there:)

Unknown Mami said...

Maybe he needed to go potty and the other beetles make him shy.

shewriting said...

He would have needed a big squash under the foot at my house...on second thought, that would be kind of messy...nice, simple 55 - thx

Candie Bracci said...

Ah you wonder too much,lol

Syd said...

I do that for all critters except cockroaches. They grow large down here and are called Palmetto bugs.

Marla said...

Did you at least get a thank you?