my body
broken & bleeding
with my self injection
of self deception
of hate filled rejection
of my own redemption
so in trying to feed
this perilous need
i lay me down to sleep
in any field i can reap
until my bones weep
no soul left to keep
and i can not...
(breathe...)
all alone, no home
chewing stones
just to feel & taste the spittle
that gathers in the corner of my cheek,
little by little
life presses me flatter
and flatter, mad hatter
laying lilies on my grave
too late to hit save
paper thin, here comes the end
HELP ME~HELP ME!
i scream in my head, heart
hanging on by a thread
as over my lips spill this disease
drowning, please
you found me
set me free,
my heart beats, you are...
I AM
when i can not be,
risen indeed.
this is my
everyday,
easter.
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- Brian Miller
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Phew...Your poem makes me realize how spoiled I am and how much I take forgranted. Shame on me.
Life ends over and over,
we renew when we are touched,
is the soul ever truely broken?
Wow. Really? Powerful writing, Brian. I agree with Bonnie. And Dianne, too.
you can feel the speed of his heart racing. beautiful work.
You know me, Brian! It is a wonderful poem, but I am not quite getting it. Trust me, it is me, I have a mental block with these.
Gorgeous and powerful...
Peace & happiness this Easter, Brian.
-Corrie
we need to die unto ourselves to reap the grace Jesus has purchased for us.
Beautiful!
I have read this several times Brian & you have moved me. This is powerful! You have brought home to me, that not everyones Easter is a Happy one. There are many in our communities that live lives less fortunate than ours...the homeless, the lonely, those whose lives are shattered for one reason or another. And their easter is just like every other day!
Now we see through a glass, darkly...but then face to face.
It's in the Knowing that the pain lies.
Made me sad, like life is such a struggle..at least you rebirth
Great stuff Brian. I especially, like this:
, you are...
I AM
when i can not be,
risen indeed.
I'm struggling with this one a bit. Maybe it hits a little too close to home.
this is pretty much my redmption story...
I thought something like that, but I always second guess myself. I LOVE the way that it is written!
He is the great I AM and He is risen indeed....
Happy Easter Brian! :)
Serious stuff here, so much so that I need to return and ponder over each line.
I love how you wove the "now I lay me down to sleep" prayer, as well as the Mad Hatter into this piece, Brian. Redemption is a mad and childish thing.
Happy Easter to you and yours! x
Actually, I meant "childlike" thing...as in faith.
I'm in awe of your writing.
i lay me down to sleep
in any field i can reap
until my bones weep
no soul left to keep
and i can not...
(breathe...)
Yum. That is a poem in and of itself. I'm going to chew on that awhile and enjoy the flavor. :-)
Wow. Beautiful. Happy Easter.
This one was a bit abstract for me, but I hear pain and I think it is about how you suffered until you met your love....
You are killing me.
Nancy is right. This is powerful stuff.
Our minister spoke only of the various forms of rebirth: renewal, second chances, reassessment. He was quite powerful too.
Happy Easter B.
we all take things for granted, however as I get older I begin to appreciate what I have, 2 posts in one day, wow..
You open yourself up and share on a more personal level in the writing. I get a sense of how hard you work on yourself. Join the club my friend. It is always one day at a time.
I can feel the energy or powerful in this piece, it is breathe taking.
Thank YOU for the thrill!
Smiles!
you could be your own inspirations by simply looking back...
I like this poem so very much.
It strikes like a rocket...
Happy Easter Evening!
Praise God he is risen!! Lovely!!!
Brian I do appreciate your comments,Thanks.
Love ya an enjoy a good evening :)
Redemption. We see it every day in many ways, in our life and others.
Beautifully written.
Blessed be.
Sometime it takes dying of one part of us, for a new part to live.
Powerful stuff, Brian!
Your writing is profound. I was gripped by these words,
"you are...
I AM
when i can not be,"
I can't tell you how many times I reread your writing. (I am still awestruck by "stained glass windows".)
When I was a student in college and my English Comp teacher was trying to convey good writing to me, all she had to say was, "Diane go read Brian Miller."
I am adding your blog to both of my blog rolls right now.
Observing people as being less fortunate requires belief in being specially gifted — as faith makes martyrs of wishful thinkers.
I meant to write "stained glass rainbows". I was carried away.
Wow, Brian, powerful poem!! Thanks for sharing it went us!!
~ Coreen
Out of darkness and into the light...such imagery...amazing!
You definitely touched a chord with everyone! Easter, rebirth......
Wow. Your poem is as moving and heavy as mine, maybe more. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Thanks for stopping by and reading my newest poems. Parts are true. I think it would be difficult to write well and deeply about something we know nothing about. I can tell you understand that too. Thank you for your encouragment.
Speechless...I AM
S
♥
hope you had a good easter
If this is about you, which I think it is, I'm sorry life is so hard.
I also relate a little too much to it and wish I didn't.
May Spring bring good things to you and your family.
Beautiful poem ...so very deep!!
Hope your week will be full of many cherished moments of love and laughter. :)
I love how you have conveyed the higher power into this: the I AM. I take it as though it is a metaphor for easter...an ability to change, to grow, to be re-born so to speak. We get these chances all the time. We just have to know when to "rise" from our self-inflicted "grave" and find what we are meant to do (and be). Happy easter, Brian. Keep up the good wor(k)(d).
I picture a homeless person trapped in the disease of addiction....it is painful, but a powerful piece. I would give you TWO pennies for your thoughts on this one and your motivation.
a very different vibe and I quite enjoyed it.
Again, I say, WOW.
Great job Brian.
Happy Easter,
jj
My interpretation was off the mark on this one but I think I get it now!
I have sat here & read it again, several times...and as I read it...the interpretations are many.
I think it threw me because although I don't know you in the personal sense, I find it difficult to think of you as broken & in need of redemption.
Very clever Brian!
Hi Brian I don't see any awards? Did you forget to post them? Okay I'll wait for your reply. :)
I don't really know what to say to this one except, WOW.
Beautiful...
A mans suffering with spiritual undertone...
I trust both you and your family had a lovey Easter.;)
xo
Zuzana
BEautiful Poem !! This is so fantastic !! Great post !Unseen Rajasthan
A curve is just that, and the wave always comes back up. I love the rap sound to this. -J
I suppose it depends on the god looked to for resurrection.
There can be some pretty nasty vices in the past sometimes. Here's to a present free of them!
Really touching!
So very very deep. And can be applied to many things in life. And I suppose death. And rebirth. I love the little things you incorporate that one wouldn't otherwise expect. Madhatter. So powerful. Very beautiful.
I suspect a lot of us are wearing similar clothing ("cut from the same cloth"), and just don't realize it. Glad you liked the poems. Thanks for your continued visits and encouraging comments.
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Love the pacing of the poem, it does have a heart beat racing affect.
Very well said...
jayne...thats intentional...i was really inspired with a spoken word vid i saw yesterday and figured i would try my hand at it.
Hi Brian, beautiful poem. Excellently written.
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I have tears as I read this...it is so beautiful.
He is risen indeed!!!!
Happy Easter to you and your lovely family.
Great story of redemption.
Wow, that was really worth reading, Brian. There are plenty souls in this house, all of which are perfectly intact and enjoying their new journey.
CJ xx
chewing stones.
Wow, Brian. That's so sad and powerful.
It left me hyperventilating! I love abstract poems that splendidly draw feelings.
My! There certainly is a lot to chew on there (aside from rocks and such, of course.) Very powerful.
So...Easter Bunny bring you anything?!
Very powerful poem, Brian..
thank you so much for sharing your blessings
with us when you share your writings...
hugs
shakira
Powerful writing.
I feel lost, too.
you are a genius today,
thank you for the fun!
nice to see you smile!
It really is an inside job! Thanks!!
So many ways to read this, Brian.
The Crucifixion and the Resurrection?
One poor soul suffering?
Thought provoking writing.
OMG
Its fantastic Brain :-)
You make me ^___^
I love the way this is written even if I am really slow on the interpretation.
So serious today Brian...
Happy Easter:)
gosh.. what a fabulous run.
i really enjoyed reading this one..
That was breathtaking...I had to read and reread..to feel it again..not only the words but the flow... exceptional... It means a few different things to me..but the most profound...dying to yourself, growth and change..my favorite thing...beautiful..!
I appreciate your kindness, Brian.
it is public, others who read it may think otherwise...however, I don't mind...
I will see you next time,
have fun!
So powerful and beautiful and true. I am forever thankful.
wow quite heavy for Easter day itself. Rejoice, there's hope ! :)
I love the images. I can see this at least two ways, one is how I allow myself to get to this point because I don't except the redemption - I must do everything on my own. The second is how I must get to the point of being so flattened that I call out for redemption - it is necessary to die each day so that I might live.
I love otin's honest. And I can't believe there is another Corrie following you.
Hi Brian,
that was dark & beautiful...I came out with a negative interpretation..the reality of many who are not fortunate or privileged enough to lead the lives we do..dnno if thats the essence you had in mind?
I now cherish the importance of these ocassions all the more in my life..lovely!
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Yes, easter comes once a year but it lives on each day. Well put story of redemption here.
Brian,this is just too good.
thank you for the encouraging words,
I appreciate your kindness.
Happy Tuesday Evening!
You Deserve The Best!
its beautiful and scary.
I love how this is written and the pace of it, as it builds and builds. Very powerful message.
A wonderful message for Easter and for everyday.
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