Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Theme Thursday: Late

pull my trigger
watch me spew
my righteous anger
against the wall
leaving only the void
where your body is
as it slowly slides
down the wall
to puddle on the floor.
...
your tongue twisting
in circles around my ear
filling my head
with copper jacket shells,
a loaded gun
cocked and aimed
you are in my sights
just waiting for you to
pull my trigger.

do you wonder
where i got my gun?
you gave it to me
with every drive by execution,
one sided conversation
when i did not
live up to the image
you built of me
in the selfish little
kingdom of your heart.
...
do you find this
image disturbing?
what do you do
with your anger?
does it actually
make things better?
does it just fortify
the siege of your love?
does it motivate you
to change something?

if you are just waiting
for someone to
pull your trigger,
don't you think
its time to do
something different?
before its too
late...

62 comments:

Wings said...

Change is in each of us. It is never really too late. Until it is.

Great (early) late piece.

willow said...

My anger is always righteous, too, heehee, as opposed to other's regular anger.

Candie Bracci said...

OMG!Intense you certainly are!I was telling myself earler,how wonderful it was to know so many people,bloggers who have all their specific talents,their own unique way of writing.But I was telling myself,Brian is the most intense!Yeap and that post just proves me right!I love how you write and you have all the tools to write a good book.Great,great piece!;)

staceyjwarner said...

wow, that is anger...i use to feel this kind of anger, it has become less throughout the years.

much love

AngelMay said...

Seems we are ALMOST on the same wavelength today in our approach to this subject.

Jill said...

Deep thoughts with Brian...

I do not see anger as a useful tool...it causes us to be sporadic and miscalculated. YOU cannot make ME feel ANGER..therefore YOU cannot pull MY trigger...I CHOOSE to pull the trigger.

I hope as I am aging I am pulling the trigger less.

Good stuff.

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blueviolet said...

I'm not even sure I have a trigger. I probably need one.

Oh My Goddess said...

It's never too late to find out a better alternative to holding on to anger.

My relationship with anger is so much different these days.

Another great one Brian!

Vodka Logic said...

Alot to think about. good one. xx

Green-Eyed Momster said...

I try to avoid it at all costs but sometimes it's impossible.
Understanding where it's coming from is key for me.
Great post, as always. Smiles!

JeffScape said...

Excellent. One of your best poems (so far).

otin said...

You did anger as good as you do love!

That was some rapid fire brilliance!

I actually wrote a love story!(Book) lol

Bonnie, Original Art Studio said...

Brilliant words, Brian.

TechnoBabe said...

Go ahead, make my day!!!

Alan Burnett said...

Great piece. I could go on interpreting it for a week. But that would make me late for my own post. Happy TT

Tom said...

only one bad decision can change a life(lives) for freakin' ever. A very sad reality. Excellant words and structure...cool.

Smart Mouth Broad said...

You have great insight to the hearts and minds of hoomans.

Skip Simpson said...

I can relate to this. When I was younger, I had a terrible temper! Now, I'm nice and mellow. Guess those "anger management" classes helped. Great post! Happy TT!

The Retired One said...

Yes!
Anger does nothing but whip around and hit you in the ass...
Energy never disappears, it just changes form or direction....

Betsy said...

You seem angry with anger. ha!

Prayer Girl said...

I have come to know that I must allow myself to feel anger. It is a human emotion. I have had to learn healthy ways of expressing that anger that does not hurt myself or anyone else. Then it passes.

Great post.
PG

Liza said...

Love this post Brian.
"your tongue twisting in circles around my ear"
GrrrrrrrrrrrrEAT!!!
Happy tt.

Kate Hanley said...

Those first few lines were so explosive, I was in at the first. Great poem - change before it's too late, especially when dealing with anger. Much to think about! Happy TT!

kys said...

I don't have anger issues. But I have many family members (including my son) who do.

Great writing - as always.

Joanna Jenkins said...

You had me on the edge of my seat! That was intense.
Great 55.
jj

Kathleen said...

The Jedi Master goes to the Dark side . . .

Sandi McBride said...

I learned to count to 10 years ago. It stood me in good stead, considering my career choice.
Sandi

smiles4u said...

I have a hard time with anger. Mostly because I've been on the receiving end of it's ugly wrath far too often. I've come a long ways but I still struggle with being in the same room with someone that is angry and I get the feeling they are ready to come out of their skin. I am learning to allow myself to be angry instead of turning it inwards. I've really had to work on this since quitting smoking. Ugh.

I love your way with words Brian.

Cabo said...

Oooh, I love that!

We have GOT to get together and resurrect something. ;)

R.J. Edwards said...

Whoa, very intense but I love it!

Mar said...

Intense. I am glad I am not too late to read it.

Late...

gaelikaa said...

Deep! And thanks Brian! I'll be aware!

Kathy's Klothesline said...

Wow... is this how you say "I'm pissed!"

Shadow said...

oh yes, waiting to lash out certinaly doesn't take us to a better place. only our behaviour, CHANGED behaviour, can do that...

Ronda Laveen said...

Loved the rapid fire stacatto of this post. Yes, how often do we push others to do what they do?

Protege said...

This one was seems somewhat dark, but still extremely poignant and well written...
;)

tony said...

Wow.Great Prose Brian. The song "Save The Last Dance For Me" rang through my head as i read it........
Anger is a Mirror I Guess?
Great Writing Sir!

Lorraine said...

Such fear beyond this anger, you never fail to amaze me

Daniel said...

Interesting take on the subject. Profound and relevant. Thanks for the post.

Gaston Studio said...

Afraid I was seeing this too literally as we just had a 3 year old shoot himself in the head with his father's gun. His father is a soldier and should have known better to leave the gun in the child's reach!

Rebecca said...

Well, I've had a few days like this. I'm not one to keep mine bottled up inside because it grows and becomes another monster all together when I do.

Poweful imagery in this poem...

Poetikat said...

Some startling and powerful images here, Brian. I really liked the "tongue twisting in circles" bit especially. I KNEW you were a poet!

Stephanie said...

That IS disturbing.

Brian Miller said...

ok, so i went intense again...i dropped a few emails back o some of you but...this is really from the perspective of some of the kids i work with...and the cycles of anger they go through...if we were honest we all have those moments when we let things build up until it blows...and then someone pulls our trigger and they get what has been building up...is there a different way...yes...but some have a hard time seeing it.

Jessie said...

yes this is very intense. i see and understand more clearly now where this piece came from. i thought you had some connection with troubled kids from your post regarding cutting.

once again, very well done.

nice style.

smiles,

rxBambi said...

I'm glad I saw your last comment there. I was going to ask you if you just beat your wife. Glad to see you didn't...

Ekanthapadhikan said...

Anger! Hm... I seldom gets angry but when I do I do not just get angry but enraged. But it'll soon be followed by a fit of solitary sobbing and cursing me-self as I never like to get angry.

...mmm... said...

Very intense, gripping indeed and a little too scary but real ins some ways as domestic violence acted and that acted out in the workforce with real gunning downs has increased exponentially over the last year with the economy in decline, adding to people's already heavy loads. Yes, yes, if only some could see there are other ways to channel this, not take it out on those one once loved. How very sad when it goes unabated.

Also, what this bring me too is the innocent person on the other side, living with the person who is bristling already, ready to pop. Many make light of the fact it's incredible challenging to escape when their very life or families are threatened in the lulls.

Harnett-Hargrove said...

Anger is best vented in (this) creative productive understanding way. -J

An Open Heart said...

Damn......

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Goofball said...

euh yes, I do find this image disturbing

liza said...

those last two stanza hit me like a bullet...How did you know I needed to hear this? But in a woman's defense...the hormones make us do it. = )

Hootin' Anni said...

At my age, anger is only a passing fancy. I don't dwell on it...to me it's a waste of time. Yet, your words are eloquent and has a lot of backbone.

Thank you, Brian, for visiting with me today.

Nessa said...

Your imagery is astounding.

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Colette Amelia said...

very powerful...and seems so simple that for all the abuse in relationships to not even happen...sadly emotions overrun the reasoning.

Kris said...

I like the word spew very much.

Dreamhaven said...

Wow, remind me not to get you mad.

Kay said...

oh, all those questions...and I wonder...what are the answers? very valid point to this one (hopefully, he will point it at himself, not me) haha

Baino said...

Ah wise words and a note to the gun lobby on both sides. I don't have much anger in me these days and being the eternal optimist hope it's never too late to walk away . . .

Pat said...

Intense, powerful, meaningful, scary.

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