Saturday, October 17, 2009

curb

little hands clench, tucked under my chin, supporting the weight of my thoughts, as i wait at the shore, where grass meets gravel road, staring into forever. my life is captured in the suitcase that i rest upon, the toes of my shoes push blades of green grass into nappy tangles to match my windswept hair.

what will i do with the rest of my life?

i have never ran away before, so i do not know what to expect, out here is the vastness of the real world. perhaps a car will come by soon and whisk me away to strange and new places, where i can join up with a band of ruthless pirates and sail the ocean blue in search of gold and booty. or catch a ride on a rocket ship, to colonize a distant planet where bulbous purple plants are hollowed out to make homes for round yellow aliens, with eyes on rubbery stalks.

i thought you might like something for the road.

teasing on the breeze, the tantalizing aroma of chocolate chip cookies perfumes the air, the white plate with floral print twining around the edges cool to the touch. their fresh out of the oven warmth spreads through me, reaching the tight little knot that has curled in my heart, slowly pulling strings that make it unravel. i can't even remember why i wanted to leave.

if i stay, can i have another cookie?

so we do.

home is a place we look to escape when we are young, only to spend our elder years trying to get back to. if you love them, sometimes you have to let them go, but keep the door open so they can catch the scent and find their way home. and perhaps that helped me come back, all those years later. for love, a knowing hug and a warm chocolate chip cookie.
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Today is my one year blogoversary. It's been a great trip, thanks to all the friends I met along the way. You have added to my life in ways you may never know. I look forward to many more adventures.

45 comments:

Hilary said...

Happy one year of blogging! What a lovely post to commemorate your milestone. May you always find the warmth of home.

otin said...

So if I keep baking cookies, that means that You will stay around for a while? :)

Congrats on a year of blogging! It seems to me that most people lose interest after about six months. Just something that I have noticed!

Pat said...

Congratulations on a full year of blogging! I just became a follower to you this past week, and have enjoyed it very much so far! You are a wonderful writer, and a caring person. I'm glad I've met you in the blogger world!

Now can I have a cookie? Smile.

Valerie said...

Happy anniversary, Brian. I didn't realise you were fairly new when I found your blog. You seemed so experienced! I ran away from home once .... smiles.

Candie Bracci said...

Happy blog anniversary!I wish you many more to come!Have a great weekend!

TechnoBabe said...

Wow, only one year? You are more seasoned than I am and I have been blogging three years. Good job, Brian. I so appreciate your talent as a husband, father and blogger!!

rxBambi said...

What a great story. Happy blogaversary. I'm so glad I found you, you're amazing. :)

Betsy said...

Happy One Year! I'm so glad to have your blog in my life!

I think the smell of chocolate chip cookies baking can make someone do just about anything! ;)
Maybe that's why moms bake them.

Susan at Stony River said...

Happy Anniversary!

And hurray for the chocolate chip cookie!

Nessa said...

Happy Anniversary.

Very nice way to capture the escape urge we all have and the need to find familiar safety.

Come Visit Silly Saturday

Bonnie, Original Art Studio said...

Your writing always captivates. Happy one year anniversary - please carry on!!

An Open Heart said...

I just acquired a harmonica....imagine me playing you a song for your Blogoversary!


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Brian Miller said...

thanks Hillary!

otin, i'm sticking around...how could i walk away knowing i would miss stories like yours..but i will take the cookies too! lol.

pat, cookies to you! thanks for following. dropped by your place today!

val, well experience..err...lol. i learn a lot from those i follow. borrow their experience if you will. thanks for being there, always enjoy your visits!

candi, ty. hope you have a great weekend as well!

technobabe, are you saying i am a bit spicy at times? lol. ty.

rxbambi, aw shucks. you make me blush.

betsy, perhaps it might be. choc chip cookies are spell L-O-V-E.

susan, hurray indeed. ty.

Daniel said...

You have added much to my life since I met you and I very much look forward to "talking" to you each day through our musings. Happy one year my friend.

Rain said...

Happy Blogovesary! I love reading your writing Brian. This post made me smile!

lakeviewer said...

Happy Blogaversary! Yes, keep returning home for cookies, for clean socks, for old stories.

Auntie, aka Coco's Mom said...

*applause*
What touching thoughts!!!

Crystal Jigsaw said...

Congratulations on your 1st year.

I think I'd be tempted back for chocolate cookies. This was a beautiful piece of writing, as always.

CJ xx

Tom said...

...and in that year you've blogged about 400 times?!!! Man, that's amazing. Congrats and let's go for another year.

Green-Eyed Momster said...

I'm making chocolate cookies today! They have a way of melting away all of our worries, don't they?
Happy one year of blogging! I'm so glad that we finally met. You posts are very touching, thought provoking and full of heart.

Drahdrah said...

Happy Anniversary !!!
This story resonates with me. I spent most of my adult life running away from the home I currently live in !!! Both ironic and wonderful.

blueviolet said...

Happy one year! The average lifespan of a blog is only six months so you're well ahead of the game!

I'm going in the kitchen right now to make cookies. Mine are at that age where they need to remember how good home is. :)

Yodood said...

you sent me to the fridge for the fudge I keep for friends in the home I've run away to. Brautiful story.

Vodka Mom said...

happy, happy day.

May you have many more years to come......

only a movie said...

Chocolate chip cookies seem like the best way to celebrate one year. Congrats and looking forward to more great writing, Brian. :-)

Baino said...

I wanted to run away once but my mum wouldn't drive me to Nana's, so I came back inside. I have never appreciated'home' as much as over the past three weeks. I can't wait to return to it after work where I count the hours until it's time to leave. Big congratulations on your anniversary! No mean feat when you post every day. Well done!

Joanna Jenkins said...

HAPPY 1st BLOG ANNI!!!!! WIshing you many, many more.

The Retired One said...

Happy blogaversary Brian!!! I have enjoyed your blog very much. You amaze me with your writing, your sensitivity and your giant heart.
Many,many more blogaversaries, and with luck and health, I hope to read you for years to come.
I thank you for your friendship and for reading my blog, too and for all the lovely compliments you always give me on my blog, too!

kys said...

Congrats on making it a year in the Blogosphere! I hope you stick around for many more.

The Things We Carried said...

Brian, Glad to have you among us!

"home is a place we look to escape when we are young, only to spend our elder years trying to get back to." Isn't that true?! Threare always places we would return to again, if only for one last glimpse...

Wings said...

Nice writing, Brian. Sweet.

Happy Anniversary!

Ocean Girl said...

Happy anniversary Brian Miller.

I really believed that I was drowned in your sea of comments. Thank you for finding me finding you.

And don't tell my children..I have ran away from home.

staceyjwarner said...

Congrats and Happy Anniversary Brian. You are a delight and this story was truly a treat, beautiful writing.

I'm glad we have found each other in the vastness of the blogosphere.

much love

Maggie May said...

Happy One Year's Blogging!
Once a blogger, always a blogger! (I hope!) Seems to be addictive and we all get as much pleasure reading your posts as you do writing them.
So heres to the next year!

Nuts in May

Marianna said...

Happy one year blogoversary (only you can invent words like that)!

Wish for many many more years of blogging to come! It has been and still is a great ride indeed lol

xoxo

Lorraine said...

Brilliant as always, Lucky us Happy one year !
As always you had me at the first sentence :)

Protege said...

Congratulations! I am so impressed with the fact that it is only your first year; you seem like such a experienced blogger.;)
Love this post; again you manage to describe the sentiments we feel about our home so eloquently.
Thank you for your always kind comments at my place, they mean a lot.
:)

♥ Braja said...

One year? We're almost twins :) Mine was one year a few weeks ago...

I remember running away. Packed my hair ribbons. Couldn't find them the next day.

♥ Braja said...

Now. Can I have a cookie please?

Goofball said...

happy blogoversary!!!!!!!!

Stacy (the Random Cool Chick) said...

I think I'll bake some chocolate chip cookies today just because. ;)

Happy blogoversary! I didn't realize it's only been a year - you seem to be quite the pro at it! ;)

Meeko Fabulous said...

Happy blogoversary! I'm so glad I've gotten the honor to read your writing.

It is so true . . . We spend our teens trying to get out from under our parents. When we get older, we finally understand why our parents were the way they were when we were growing up and we thank them for it.

Poetikat said...

Congratulations on one fantastic year! You grow every day and your work just keeps getting better.

My favourite line was this:

"he orbits her beauty with his eyes"

Your sons are very fortunate (and so is their mother) to have you in their lives.

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