Monday, September 7, 2009

Hard Court Dreams

He dreams hard court dreams behind those soft hazel eyes. Smooth glides through the lane, leaving defenders struck by the shine of his star reflected in the polished parquet floor. Confident hands clutching the hard dimpled leather of a well fought rebound and the thunderous snaps of a thousand flash bulbs as the game winning shot winks through the hoop…

…but the ball just dribbles off his knee out of bounds, gangly limbs swaying as he lopes after.

Fate winks periodically with the crisp crack of the net, the ball finding its unsuspecting target and a big goofy grin breaks across his mahogany face, all teeth and gums. For a brief moment he is like every other high school boy and MR is not the diagnosis at the end of his name but the salutation preceding it.

His greatest dream is to be a Walmart greeter where he can hup peeple. Even this may be a stretch, at times, but he keeps dreaming. Sometimes I wonder if he is blessed, trapped in his eternal child-like mind, where neverland never ends.

Growing up and putting child like things behind us too often includes our dreaming. We call it being realistic, maybe to make us feel better.

There is little scarier than someone that has stopped dreaming…

…and is still breathing.

What is your dream?

42 comments:

darsden said...

Wow, Brian you sure can put pen to paper man! Awesome Post. To have been a Tennis Contender!

Leah said...

There really is little scarier.

It makes me glad that I dream still, and come from a family of dreamers.

The Things We Carried said...

You can write. You CAN REALLY write! I dream of being an artsist, photographer, author, traveler...

And you?

Daniel said...

Wonderful post here. My dream is to find the peace that has alluded me for the past 4 years. I'm not sure if it will ever come. My heart is still so broken and my head is so messed up. I long for a time when I was so certain of the future and so innocent regarding the ways of the world.

Brian Miller said...

@darsden - ty. i am a fan of tennis, anything for luv...lol.

@leah - dream on...

@things we carried - ty. to write...all my other dreams have come true. smiles.

Baino said...

I dream too much but then slam back down to reality. I'm always worried I'll never quite get there, I don't want much, happy family, good health, retirement, and a long holiday without worrying about the bills. The opportunity to give a little back. . and to see my children thrive in their chosen path. There . . told you it wasn't much!

Ronda Laveen said...

My dream? Dance like a ballerina. Sing like a female version of Josh Grobnn. Play like Yanni. Draw, paint. Write like myself...la, la, la...but most of all, travel at the speed of light with just my body or light body. Yea, I think about that often.

Brian Miller said...

you two ladies are amazing..you both dream big amazing dreams! just your body at the speed of light ronda? how cool would that be?

Ekanthapadhikan said...

O Wow! Such lucid style of writing, I've rarely seen before.

And about my dream - I dream of becoming a known photographer one day. I have other dreams too. In fact, I've many dreams! I'm a dreamer, a Bohemian by heart and soul.

Kathy's Klothesline said...

Ah... dreams. Life would be so boring without dreams.

Kay said...

Maybe its not the realist setting in, merely, dreams, goals, changing...love the example lain here as I spent part of my day with the most vibrant boy with down syndrome and autistic tendencies; and he is such a pleasure and delight to be around. Remembering the simplicity behind life. Great post!

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Alan Burnett said...

I dream that one day I will get everything in order! I have a feeling that such a dream says something really troubling about my psyche. But still I dream

Tom said...

What Gtr said! Spot on.
Sometimes we get too caught up in life, and you're right, gotta slow down and dream a little.

Shrinky said...

I dream of many things, and I wish for even more. I guess I'd gladly trade most in, if only for this one given; a happy, dignified and semi-independant life my son can live, when I am no longer here. I live in hope this can and will come true.

Gaston Studio said...

It doesn't matter what our dream is, because it's our dream, but the important thing is to never stop dreaming. Great post Brian.

Wings said...

Definitely a scary thought, never dreaming any more.

Nice piece.

California Girl said...

your writiing is getting so good. this is very poignant, puts a lump in my throat.

♥ Braja said...

To write, to reach....

Cindybrown said...

You are brilliant Brian! We are never to old to dream, but I also look at your post from a different angle. I work in Special Education and I have often thought about my students and how some of the most simple things in life is all they want and need to be happy. We really have a lot to learn from the SPECIAL people in our world:) Great post Brian!

Betsy said...

Dreams keep us motivated...I'll never stop dreaming! Could do without the nightmares, though! LOL!

Shadow said...

what an enchanting post! dreams. oh how i love to dream. and then i realised this morning, i'm actually living my dream... and voila! check my post...

willow said...

If your dream is to be a writer, Brian, then you have realized your dream.

Cinnamon said...

My life is full of dreams and day-dreams, (to be able to dance, to travel the world, to leave my job and go to uni to study) but I know they are unlikely to be realised. I still enjoy dreaming them though! I am happy to still have some influence on what is most important to me- to see my sons happy and adjusted to adult living.

Your story is very poignant and brilliantly told.

BeautifulWreck said...

In many ways I am living my dream.

smiles4u said...

Excellent. I tend to get so caught up in doing what needs to be done or focusing on what needs to be done that I forget to dream. Dreaming is important and I needed to be reminded of this today. Thank you.

Lorraine said...

You write like an angel...my dream was to find magic, occasionally I still can

Akelamalu said...

Oh my, you sure have a way with words. :)

When we stop dreaming we stop being!

My dream is to travel as much as possible when I retire. :)

Thanks for stopping by my place and taking the time to comment, I hope you'll call again. :)

Protege said...

I love the way you write. It is so simple, yet so profound. I recognize the way you think, as I believe imagination and the innocence of a naive mind is our most treasured possessions.
Thank you so much for stopping by my place again, I appreciate your comments.

subtorp77 said...

Brian you just answered that one. I'm still stuck in Neverland. I refuse to grow up!!

Valerie said...

Well, well, Brian. After reading all the replies to your excellent post I think there must be something wrong with me. I don't dream too much, if at all. I'm a realist. Take life as it comes and make the most of it. Enjoy it. Commit to the latest undertaking. And enjoy it. Guess I'd better go and sort myself out.

Cheffie-Mom said...

Wow! How beautiful! My dream is to reconnect and heal families across the world!

TechnoBabe said...

I think I would not be breathing if I were not still dreaming. My dreams inspire me. My dreams are mine.

blueviolet said...

Dreams keep us going, don't they?

I've toned my dreams down dramatically through the years. I just want my kids to be happy and healthy and I don't want to be rich or have lots of things but I don't want to have to worry about paying the bills. I just want to make ends meet more easily.

otin said...

I love the MR part!!!! I know a few people who this applies to.

Hit 40 said...

i am dreaming of...

travel and great memories for my kids this school year.

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

Beautiful post. Sigh.

Here's one of my all-time favorite poems:

Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

Langston Hughes

Stacy (the Random Cool Chick) said...

Beautiful, Brian!

I was born a dreamer and will continue to dream...and currently, I'm living my dream. :)

Beth said...

I dream to be artistic. In my mind, I am. In reality, not so much.

Great post!

The Retired One said...

I have had many dreams, and I have been blessed that many have come true.
Now, I only hope and dream for a longer life with my beloved husband and the health and happiness of my children and grandchildren.
Oh, and a little thing called world peace.

Goofball said...

Gosh I watch too much tennis lately. "hard court" was a tennis court to me and then the next images were rather strange :p. Ok I've figure it out . Hehehe

I'm not sure if I have many dreams. I think I've transformed most of them into hobbies which I enjoy. And others I treasure inside.

...mmm... said...

I like what Willow says above.

Very good.

Dreams for me? None now and rarely. too many times too disappointed to dream. Life is full of the unexpected.