Thursday, August 20, 2009

Record Player

Yesterday was a long day, one in a week of long days. Being gone for a long weekend will do that to you.

Isn't it funny how taking time away and relaxing only leads to full days playing catch up that make you forget about the break you just had? Let's not forget about the week leading up to a break and everything you cram in just so you can be ready.

When we were young we had a record player with a little lever that you used to control the speed. Flip it one way and Whitesnake became the Chipmunks. Flip it the other way and the singer seems to fall asleep between syllables.

Breaks feel kinda like that, sometimes.

Heavy, the day rested on my shoulders as the crunch of tires greeted me in the driveway. Slumping across the lawn, I breathed in the first few minutes of stars beginning to twinkle on display against the deepening onyx sky.

Smiles and hugs to be home, the boys already in bed, my dinner spins in circles in the microwave. A quick debrief of the day leaks out like a pin hole in a balloon, deflating me across the couch.

Boom. Boom. Boom. A billowing mass of fuzzy brown blanket bounds down the length of the hall, across the living room and takes a flying leap into my lap, giggling and grabbing, pulling me into a warm embrace. The air is infused with the fragrance of my boy, as I inhale deeply.

Our noses touch in the shadows within, whispers slide across my cheek to my ears...I can't sleep.

Eyes pinched tight, I exhale in a smile...I am glad.

I carry him to bed and lay next to him, listening to his breathing slow with sleep and I can't help but think the record is spinning at just the right speed, right now.

39 comments:

Daniel said...

This brings back memories of gentle greetings behind sleepy eyes that I used to get when I returned home late from my far-aways. This brought a few tears to my old eyes as I thought back to distant times. Thank you so much.

darsden said...

Awe...now that is a welcome home huh.. :-)

blueviolet said...

You just can't ask for a better ending to the day than that.

Ronda Laveen said...

A perfect ending to a not so perfect day!

Kathy's Klothesline said...

Nothing sweeter than a sleepy child, and the smell of a child you love makes your heart nearly explode with love!

otin said...

....and you worked shadow into another post!

Nancy said...

Beautifully said. That wonderous time when everthing is as it should be. Love it.

Kay said...

so true, so true, the infamous hurry up and wait. fresh dreams to you all

only a movie said...

What a nice welcome home.

Deb said...

perfect ending to the day...

Brian Miller said...

@daniel - never too old, either one of you...smiles.

@darsden - smiles. yes it is...

@blueviolet - well i coulda recieved an inheritance from an unknown wealthy family member allowing me just to stay at home and play...but this one was pretty close.

@ronda - indeed.

@kathy - there really is nothing like that smell...

@otin - i think i am going to try to work it into every post for the next...nah, just kidding...hey are you stalking me...your not one of those psycho bloggers are you? lol.

@nancy - every once in a while...every once in a whiel..

@kay - ty. sweet dreams to you as well. truly a marvelous poem by the way...

@only - yes....

@deb - like a no hitter....

lakeviewer said...

What beautiful imagery. The Record player is a powerful symbol here.

Pastor Sharon said...

Brian,
I am past child birth at this point and it makes me wish my 21 yr old son was that little sleepless guy again!

And, he humors me with tender moments just the same and all is right in the world again. And, the record playing spins at just the right speed.

Joanna Jenkins said...

"...I can't help but think the record is spinning at just the right speed..." Perfection!

Welcome home.

Goofball said...

it was in the news this week over here "the effect of a vacation is gone within 2 days after your return" because of the piled up work that usually awaits you upon return.


oooh the billowing mass of fuzzy brown blankets walking down the hallway....how cute! I can totally see it entering the living room. I 'd want to tickle that blanket mass :p

Marianna said...

Such a sweet picture! It feels good to be home, eh?

xoxo

Mariana Soffer said...

I am really happy for you, it is important to have satisfaction and happiness specially when you are going trough some particular stages, and when they happen they are great, magical, what I love of them is that you do not notice they are happening, they just do, and you are not even aware, but that does not take away the good thing that occurs at all.
You made me remember of the first record player I had, is a funny story because I broke it 2 days after I got it for climbing on it in order to watch trough a high window, I was so clumsy, but then a dear friend came home with almost a hundred records and a new player to listen to them. That memory makes me happy.

M

Candie Bracci said...

WOW!Yes there are moments when the record is speeding like it should.Really nice Brian!I had one of those too!lol.
Have a nice day:)

Candie Bracci said...

LOL Otin!!

subtorp77 said...

Brian, but you know it's good to be back home, right?! And love the record player analogy :) Cheers to the week-end!

Alan Burnett said...

I love the analogy of the old record player. It took me right back to my youth when I would do the Chipmonk thing to my brothers favourite records.

Jill said...

Brian....this is beautiful...just beautiful and cherishing those little moments with your sons are the things they will remember long after they leave your safe haven!


OH, and you have reminded me that I must finish putting away all the beach stuff from vacation! SUCH WORK to prepare then come home!

Leah said...

That's a perfect metaphor, it really captures that feeling.

I love putting my Hedgie to sleep too, sometimes, still, for just that reason. Back at the right speed.

Meeko Fabulous said...

This post made me miss my dad! :(

RickNiekLikeBikes said...

Came bounding down in Chipmunk speed!

The Retired One said...

I know that moment.
And now, I inhale my grandkids in the same manner...
It is so wonderful that you feel and appreciate those oh so precious moments with your son.

Valerie said...

Know what you mean, Brian. I'm just getting over coming back from vacation!
What a wonderful welcome you got from your boy.

Hit 40 said...

I love the quiet moments before bed. The kids are totally different with the covers pulled over them for the night. All hugs and kisses for me! They do not remember their ornery behavior from the day.

otin said...

Friday is a sad day when you have to work saturday!

Brian Miller said...

otin,

working tomorrow as well...on my birthday much lass...sick. sharing your pain.

b

Baino said...

I know how you feel. Although I've just had two days off to do stuff so today and tommorrow, I'm going to relax . .big time! Enjoy those moments, before you know he'll be 6'2" and faux fighting instead of snuggling.

Verily I go. said...

Brian. I'm playing ketchup with you. So beautiful, so real. I love having you to read, thanks.

Mrsupole said...

My favorite, you and the family.

Hugs.

Slapping hands again...

God bless.

lettuce said...

trying to keep a lid on that catch-up phenomenon over here! hugging kids is a great way to do so

Mrsupole said...

I just realized if I keep slapping my hands to make me quit typing that I will need surgery on them too.

So I think I better stop that and just get back to lurking and the no comment thing, but sometimes it is hard to not say something. Sigh.

Lorraine said...

Oh Brian, this is SUPERB, hearwarming, beautifully writen piece. I love how you used the old record player to show use exactly the feeling you had...and the speed at which you were at...It's pure genius!!!YOU are so impressive and expressive lol

kylie said...

a beautiful description of a wonderful moment :)

lisaschaos said...

It is always fun playing catch up after breaks - not! But that greeting form your boy is priceless! Glad you lay down with him and breathed the reality/joy of your life.

Stacy (the Random Cool Chick) said...

What a wonderful welcome home. Priceless!