Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Theme Thursday:Button

Catseye colored buttons slightly muted by the layer of dust, still wink in the faint light trickling through the basement window. One is chipped from its edge to the thin thread holding it in place, a wound of love being dragged behind on some adventure. Remembering the little fingers tracing the jagged edge, as if polishing away the pain as they drifted off to sleep.

One leg dangles from the drab green metal shelf, the other resting against the cool face of a glass vase. His reflection on the surface still hints at nights spent cuddled tightly between arm and breast, as he kept watch for things creeping out of the closet, allowing his playmate to sleep soundly. White and black fur, worn to excess, carries hints of frosting and cookies and night time confessions.

His little buttons had beheld the majesty of beach vacations and mountain streams, birthday parties and asphalt fading into the horizon from his perch upon the back pack. Now the expanse of grey concrete and forgotten knick knacks, were all the world he knew, his memories keeping him barely warm. Forgotten, he sits.

Flickering lights and mumbling voices awaken his wide eyed slumber, his companion that once held him strides into the room, pausing, confronted by the gleam in the buttons of an old friend. Firm hands retrieve him from his perch, pull him close and breath deep the nostalgia.

Let me introduce you to someone Teddy.

Little hands grasp him gently, exploring stories untold wrapped in stinching. No bells, no whistles, or moveable parts, just a bear in need of a little boy's heart. Once more worthy to love and be loved, really he always was, just waiting for a time such as this. Up the stairs he trails, swinging upside down by one clutched foot, small black thread of a mouth curling into a smile, beneath his eyes made of buttons.

48 comments:

BabYpose said...

Hey, that's the four legged boy, Teddy :)

Wings said...

Lots of little 'gone but not forgotten' pals out there, I am sure.

Nice little piece, and a good take on a tough theme!

otin said...

My brother had a blanket that he would not want to be without, I think my parents had to eventually hide it from him. I don't recall ever having a Teddy Bear or any other stuffed animal, just those damned imaginary dinosaurs, but they didn't have button eyes:)

Nicole said...

I can relate, my friend. When I was little, I had a stuffed cat named Meow Meow (so original, I know). I took that cat everywhere until I was 6 or 7 (according to my parents)... A few times, Meow Meow's head fell off, and a friend at the post office Becky would sew it back on and I would have my friend again. The worn pink bow at the center of the cats neck still brings comfort, and the feel of the tattered fur and the worn cloth in between patches of the fur still brings back memories and makes me feel warm inside. A great take on an interesting theme - Happy TT, Brian! XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD

J A Harnett-Hargrove said...

It's strange how the tangent seems hard to let go of, and then afterward the memory of the thing is even harder to release. -J

Daniel said...

Wonderful Brian. My little one brings a full duffel bag back and forth with her buddies. Over the past year, they have been less frequent visitors to the market or out on the town. It is natural for her to feel less attached as she grows more sure. For me, my heart struggles to get past the memories of a younger, less certain child who always needed those companions.

Kris said...

Now, I do like that one!

willow said...

I still have my Teddy, too. He's boxed away somewhere. I should find him.

Jaime said...

instead of a teddy, i had a stuffed horse. but he was as well-traveled, worn out and loved as the bear in your story.

scarlethue said...

You make words flow so beautifully!

Leah said...

I'm so glad dear Teddy found someone new to love!

what a great post.

Dakota Bear said...

There is nothing like a Teddy bear. The ones of my oldest and youngest daughter sit on my bed everyday.

My youngest sister has an entire room of Teddy bears. And I find that I have an ever going collection of my own.

Alyson (New England Living) said...

Love it! I was just pulling out my old teddies for my kids.

Joanna Jenkins said...

I love that Brian! It brought back some sweet memories of now grown children in my life.
Thanks

Bobbie said...

Love this one! Nice read :)

subtorp77 said...

Brian, I have got to post a photo( I think I still have ), of the stuffed dog my bro carried round for years! And I've done more than one teddy bear repair-HA! BUtwhat stories they could tell, if only...

R.J. Edwards said...

What a lovely piece. I still have the teddy I grew up with. He sits in the chair in my bedroom. Makes me smile every time I see him.

Megan said...

A lovely toy story.

BeautifulWreck said...

Nice work. Second button themed post I have read. Tough theme but you did fantastic. I still have my mother's teddy with button eyes.

VE said...

I videotaped my daughter and her collection of stuffed pals. She lined them up and introduced them by name. The more time that goes by as she grows up, the more priceless that video becomes.

Great description on this one...

Alan Burnett said...

Nice one Brian. Lots of button memories treated in your usual evocative style.

Candie Bracci said...

I just love it!:)

Goofball said...

smile :)

Deb said...

I am sitting here, waiting for the call from my son and his wife telling me that my grandchild has arrived - any minute now! I gave my son his much loved 'Teddy' recently - the nose was rubbed off from so much loving. One ear has a tear from when our dog mistook Teddy as his toy - that was not a good day! The look on his 25 year old face when I handed him his old friend was priceless. Beautiful post.

Baino said...

Aww Brian. So, so, sweet. The things our Teddies endure. I never had one as a child but I was tidying Adam's wardrobe the other day and their was sailor ted. One eye, still wearing his sailor cap, his Navy bib long gone but smiling and sitting comfortably on a pile of books. Tugged at the heart he did. I gave him a little dust off and a cuddle and put him back.

Holly said...

Knew you would come through with yet another GREAT post!!

Betsy said...

I still have my Teddy...his name was Lollipop. He's sitting in my closet where I see him every day. :)

Lorraine said...

There's a great story about Theodore Roosevelt and his Teddy Bear, where apparently the 'Teddy'
Bear was named after him...
ps you brought a tear to my eyes :)

Joseph Pulikotil said...

Hi Brian:)

Very interesting story beautifully written.

You know, my youngest son who is 23 three years old still has his glow worm which I bought him perhaps when he was two or three years old. He shines it and keeps it on the computer table where he can see it always.

Have a nice day Brian:)
Joseph

Brian Miller said...

@babypose - smiles

@wings - it was a little tough to think beyond the norm on this one. i am sure as well.

@otin - beware the dinos! lol. the look in their eyes...

@nicole - sweet story. thanks for sharing it. worn and tattered means lots of love.

@j - mmmm...too true.

@daniel - yeah, the boys don't play with them as much, but always need them when the night is done.

@kris - lol. happy to please.

@jaime - mine was a panda bear...

@scarlethue - why thank you...

@leah - much loved indeed

@dakota - they are a great reminder of our and our childrens childhood...recapturing those moments. stopped by but it would not let me comment...

@alyson - i am sure they loved it!

@joanna - nice to sit in those memories occassionally as they grow up and move out on their own...

@subtorp - our stuffed animals, ever our companions...if only they blogged...the stories they would tell..

@rj - nice. mine rest at my parents house. enjoy the smiles.

@megan - there is some funny innocnece in those movies.

@beautiful - ty. fun to pass them on so that their stories can continue.

@VE - like that thought...will be nice in years to come to revisit those moments via the video..

@AB - smiles. enjoy them.

@candie - ty

@goofball - its contageous isn't it.

@deb - yay! too cool! always fun..the freshness of babies as you hold them close...i can see his look.

@baino - i am sure he enjoyed the cuddle. his one little eye probably holds reflections of lots of memories.

@holly - ty. smiles.

@betsy lollipop...cool name. my son named his ice cube...lol.

@lorraine - tears of joy I hope. smiles.

@joseph - have a great day as well. there is a certain attachment to our old toys that harbor such memories.

The Silver Fox said...

The less a toy "does," the more our imagination works. Like when we buy a multi-tasking toy for a kid and he or she plays with -- or in -- the box.

I've spent a small fortune "buying back" my chiildhood on eBay!

...mmm... said...

awwww. simple and warm.

Poetikat said...

Brian, may I suggest you have a stab at poetry? This was so close as to be considered more than just prose.
(I still have my "Teddy". He's 48 years young. They age backwards, you know.)

Kat

Dot-Com said...

You should show us a pictue of Teddy :-)

Brian Miller said...

@silver fox - yeah i like the simple toys...they seem to engage on a whole new level.

@mmmm - should life be that way?

@poetikat - i tried about a week ago. sometimes it works...others not so much. i do try to flow though. yes they do age backward. smiles.

@dot com - he's at my moms, or i would. i thought about finding one online but it just would not be the same.

Colette Amelia said...

once again you lead us down the story wondering just where we will end up and as usual you don't disappoint! Bravo!

lakeviewer said...

Sweet and charming, just like Teddy. We all have Teddy bears, but yours has a special author to give it life.

liza said...

AHHH. You did again. You released with your words the most precious of childhood memories. We love our teddies... or in my case rabbit.

books,coffee,etc.... said...

Hi! Brian,
I try not to read the other TT members, comments until I read your post and then I write my comment and then I read the other TT members comments.
But, I have to agree your description of situations are so very "vivid"
"beneath his eyes made of buttons."
I can almost picture whatever you write about in my mind-eye.

Nice post! Once again, Thanks, for sharing!
DeeDee ;-D

The Retired One said...

My husband still has his Teddy from childhood here, snuggled inside a trunk..but he can't throw it out. It is missing an eye and looks pretty worn......yet I envy him for still having it. I have nothing left from my childhood to cuddle and inhale and remember days gone by with....
Great post...just wonderful!

Jill said...

I am SOOOOOO happy for Teddy! Such love!

Makes me need to go off and find our copy of Velveteen Rabbit to share with the kiddos tonight!

Thanks Brian...so nostalgic!

Blogfornoob Dot Com said...

Teddy found someone new to loved!!!!!!

Dreamhaven said...

I love it. You sound like one awesome Dad.

Ben said...

I totally have a bear just like that. Kind of sad in a way. I think mine's still in my room somewhere. I love the subject matter of what you write about. Always very heartfelt.

mouse (aka kimy) said...

awwwww....beautifully written!

California Girl said...

awwww gosh. you tug at my heart.

i didn't participate in TT this week. just couldn't figure out what to write about "Button". I remembered too late there is a somewhat celebrated store in NYC that self proclaims to have the greatest button collection in the world; all for sale; antiques, one of a kind, etc. I rpobably should have googled that on youtube and found the video and published it.

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

Oh, Brian, this is completely wonderful. I got teary at the end. You really have a talent for this.

lettuce said...

sweet