Friday, March 6, 2009

terror

oh what panic ripped through my heart. you would think the world was coming to an end, or so it seemed. nothing inspires the imagination quite like being in the middle of no where when the gas light comes on.

mentally kicking myself for not stopping, i try to run the calculations in my head. how far back was the last gas station, how far forward until the next? when was the last time i saw a car on this road? would they stop for me? would i want them to? is it too far to walk? if i cut through the woods, what lives there? do i go forward or back?

but alas, i made it to the next stop. what was sheer terror a few minutes ago is now forgotten. full of fuel i am ready to continue forward. how often we let our fear of the unknown overtake us and keep us rooted in or place, neither reaching forward or back, stuck. a sad life indeed, never reaching our destination.

5 comments:

Daniel said...

You caught the feeling of anxiety and I am glad that you have the ability to let it go so quickly. I tend to hang onto the tenseness and panic long after the troubling incident has past.

Avid Reader said...

You really captured all of those feelings here.

I felt this a few years ago driving late one night in Pennsylvania--sheer panic after a wrong turn led me down a country road instead of a gas station! panic panic panic....

I too forgot everything once I turned back and found my way--but did I learn? I've repeated the error once since then, so I haven't.

What makes us NOT stop when we first think we Should???

Brian Miller said...

i unfortunately have found myself in this position too many times. one day i may learn.

subtorp77 said...

I can fear the unknown or act upon it as an adventure. Too, the adrenaline rush you create, just ads to it.

Cinnamon said...

I once got lost in a field of fog- it was truly terrifying. I think the same is true of spontaneity- fear of the unknown holds us back from being spontaneous and adventurous. To be able to stay relaxed in changing circumstances requires a confidence and trust. Not easy to find.